and the end

beberapa short message yang behasil bikin gue nangis
tapi semua tetep aja udah terlambat,

14 dec 00:24:47

"sebenernya aku butuh tapi aku terlalu egois sampe sampe nggak pernah dengerin kamu.
dan aku sadar semua nasehat kamu, marah kamu dan perhatian kamu semata mata cuma buat aku agar lebih baik .
aku banyak banget terima kasih sm kamu"

14 dec 00:33:39

"aku butuh kamu. kamu kayak jiwa raga aku, kamu slalu disisi aku saat aku terpuruk dan sukses yang selalu sabar kalo aku khilaf yang selalu berbagi senyuman ke aku cuma buat bikin aku seneng padahal kamu tersiksa dengan tingkah laku aku. aku itu orang bodo. maafin aku ya atas semuanya, kamu orang paling berarti buat aku"

14 dec 00:46:06

"aku sedih bgt.. kalo kamu tau sakitnya hati aku waktu kamu ninggalin aku. sedih kehilangan orang yang paling berjasa dan paling baik ke aku.
mimpi aku pengen bales kebaikan kamu mungkin udah nggak bs aku lakuin.
aku mohon maaf bgt kalo slama km jadian sm aku kamu selalu marah, sedih, kesel degan tingkah laku aku. aku mohon maaf yaa..
aku ngerasa dosa bgt ke kamu.."

14 dec 01:33:03

"mungkin aku blm bisa buat kamu seneng seseneng yang aku rasain. Bersyukur aku sm allah pernah ngerasan indahnya di sayang dan dicintai sm kamu. aku cuma berdoa kebahagiaan selalu sama kamu seumur hidup, doa ku selalu mengiringi"

life is..

akan ada hijau setelah merah,
hidup yang mengajari gue tentang hidup.
tentang berbagai hal yang menyakitkan.
tentang kenyataan yang nggak gue inginkan.
tapi, itu lah hidup.
hanya pilihan dan pengorbanan.
ada hal hal yang gue pikir itu mudah,
ternyata sulit dan begitu menyakitkan,
untuk gue yang perasa atau bahkan terlalu sensitif

i really love you but it must end

gue pikir gue udah cukup matang untuk memikirkan ini, untuk mengambil keputusan ini.
tp kenapa masih ada perasaan sedih, dan merasa kehilangan??
sekarang semuanya udah berakhir..
hubungan selama 3bln its over now
meskipun gue udah ngerasa milikin lo sepenuhnya..
sama kayak lo yang bilang ke gue "lo tu jiwa gue ra.."
tapi semoga ini jalan yg terbaik buat kita..
seberapa pun menyakitkannya ini buat lo bar..
lo harus ttp kuat yaa..??
berubah demi baikan lo, bukan demi gue..
allah sedang menyiapkan seseorang yg lebih baik dr gue..

where the right way for me??

bar,
I do not know just what I feel but I want you know ..
recently do not know why the intensity of my comfort to you less,
far less from the beginning we were lovers.
the thing really makes me comfortable with you, do not know where it went ..
You know I really care about you,
but I feel not find affection from you ..
for this that I think you seem to force anything that you think is comfortable and pleasant bar, but I have principles and restrictions limit (which you've broken, too) I try to survive,
but I think until when going like this and hold (in the lack comfort)
bar, I'm not like the reply so far you think,
I tried to open with my situation but you still think I wrote what you think

hopefully there is improvement in our relationships

i doubt

oh god, is this the best way that you give??
please tell me what must i do with this feel
if this is not the best way, please show the best way.
tell me what he want,
and protect me from pain

bukan keluarga besar IKJ

pernah tau nggak rasa nya terobsesi dengan sesuatu??
ya, seperti yg udah pernah gue posting sebelumnya ttg keinginan gue yg sangan kuat untuk masuk institut kesenian jakarta.

tapi ternyata beda seperti yg gue bayangkan, nggk gampang emg mendapatkan sesuatu yg udah kita cita2 kan selama ini. hari pertama masuk kuliah angkatan gue 2009 diusir sm senior, kami nggak di anggap sebgai keluarga besar IKJ karna kami belum melalui mataseni atau apresiasi seni yang memang sudah di tiadakan oleh para petinggi kampus.

trs, apa yg bisa kita lakukan sekarang.. jadi serba salah semua, nggak boleh nongkrong akhirnya jadi kupu kupu aja (kuliah pulang - kuliah pulang).. tapi sampe kapan mau kaya gini terus?? masa sih kuliah 4thn cm jd kupu-kupu aja??

lebih baik 3 hari mata seni untuk 4thn yg berarti kan?? sedih bgt (sampe hampir meneteskan air mata) setiap kali baca komentar dr para senior yg menyakitkan di group mahasiswa institut kesenian jakarta '09. rasanya kaya di ospek di dunia maya..

2009 terlantar

go go power ranger

akhir akhir ini sahabat tersayang gue ini lagi perhatian bgt deh sm gue.. nggak cuma beberapa bulan lalu aja dia nanya nanya masalah "pacar / gebetan gue" (yang dia tau bgt gue udah lama ngejomblo) sampe akhirnya dia bilang kalo dia takut gue kelainan. wtf!!!

dan kemaren dia mulai menanyakan perihal yang sama itu lagi ke gue..
hhmmm.. sebenernya sih gue bingung mau jawab apa, akhirnya ya gue jawab aja jujur emang gue lagi nggak terikat hubungan dengan siapa siapa dan lagi nggak deket sama siapa siapa

gilang : masa sih ra nggak ada
gue : sumpah deh emang nggak ada
gilang : secara dari SMP (ha?? selama itukah??) gt.. masa yang lagi deket jg nggak ada..??
gue : ck.. susah si lang gue nyari calon suami bukan nyari pacar. ahahah

rara , gilang , eki

setelah cukup lama nggak ngumpul bareng, akhirnya kita menghabiskan malam sabtu kemaren di acara ulang tahun farida ( eki's girlfriend)

you (my brother who once i love)

You did it again
You did hurt my heart
I don’t know how many times

You... I don’t know what to say
You’ve made me so desperately in love
and now you let me down

You said you’d never lie again
You said this time would be so right
But then I found you were lying there by her side

You.. You turn my whole life so blue
Drowning me so deep, I just can reach myself again
You.. Successfully tore myheart
Now it’s only pieces
Nothing left but pieces of you

You frustated me with this love
I’ve been trying to understand
You know i’m trying i’m trying

You.. I don’t know what to say
You’ve made me so desperately in love
And now you let me down

for my brother who once i love

please dont look me like the same other woman,
I am here for you to use full heart.
not only play like them

if you dont want me

dont play my feelings

gayah born again

happy birthday 18th
gayah rogayah

special cake for gayah


first cake


next me

fucking hell !!

hate egoistic person!!!

why i was among egoistic people?

there is a saturation point where approach me.
and I think it has reached its peak.
i saturated in all that happens.

for the i nearest

stuck inside a world my hate

photo by ; dian

I enjoy every second darkness, in my room.
I feel comfortable with this situation and do not want anything happening.
What do you want from me after a weak I do not freeze, because you all act.
you are one that I love, therefore I can never repay you all act.
please tell me, if you do not want me anymore.
I do not want to because I have a commotion.
do not want to have the more comfortable because I am.

from now on forget that happened.
forget that I ever have in your life.
and everything will be better without me.
there will be no major changes in your life.
Indeed, because I did not mean for you.
clear that you will be satisfied with all that you have to do against me.


and I will remain here.
in the comfort of my
in my room in the dark
only here because I lost loads
please do not bother me comfort
This is because only I can do

Boulevard Of Broken Dreams, green day

"Boulevard Of Broken Dreams"

I walk a lonely road
The only one that I have ever known
Don't know where it goes
But it's home to me and I walk alone

I walk this empty street
On the Boulevard of Broken Dreams
Where the city sleeps
and I'm the only one and I walk alone

I walk alone
I walk alone

I walk alone
I walk a...

My shadow's the only one that walks beside me
My shallow heart's the only thing that's beating
Sometimes I wish someone out there will find me
'Til then I walk alone

Ah-ah, Ah-ah, Ah-ah, Aaah-ah,
Ah-ah, Ah-ah, Ah-ah

I'm walking down the line
That divides me somewhere in my mind
On the border line
Of the edge and where I walk alone

Read between the lines
What's fucked up and everything's alright
Check my vital signs
To know I'm still alive and I walk alone

I walk alone
I walk alone

I walk alone
I walk a...

My shadow's the only one that walks beside me
My shallow heart's the only thing that's beating
Sometimes I wish someone out there will find me
'Til then I walk alone

Ah-ah, Ah-ah, Ah-ah, Aaah-ah
Ah-ah, Ah-ah

I walk alone
I walk a...

I walk this empty street
On the Boulevard of Broken Dreams
Where the city sleeps
And I'm the only one and I walk a...

My shadow's the only one that walks beside me
My shallow heart's the only thing that's beating
Sometimes I wish someone out there will find me
'Til then I walk alone...

17 again

zac efron so cool, men !!!

happen again

i know, not all the things what i want can be happen

but its so hurt after he success make a fool of my heart !!!

for my brother who once i love

Michael Jackson, "You Are Not Alone"

Another day has gone
I'm still all alone
How could this be
You're not here with me
You never said goodbye
Someone tell me why
Did you have to go
And leave my world so cold

Everyday I sit and ask myself
How did love slip away
Something whispers in my ear and says
That you are not alone
For I am here with you
Though you're far away
I am here to stay

But you are not alone
For I am here with you
Though we're far apart
You're always in my heart
But you are not alone

'Lone, 'lone
Why, 'lone

Just the other night
I thought I heard you cry
Asking me to come
And hold you in my arms
I can hear your prayers
Your burdens I will bear
But first I need your hand
Then forever can begin

Everyday I sit and ask myself
How did love slip away
Something whispers in my ear and says
That you are not alone
For I am here with you
Though you're far away
I am here to stay

For you are not alone
For I am here with you
Though we're far apart
You're always in my heart
For you are not alone

Whisper three words and I'll come runnin'
And girl you know that I'll be there
I'll be there

You are not alone
For I am here with you
Though you're far away
I am here to stay
For you are not alone
For I am here with you
Though we're far apart
You're always in my heart

For you are not alone
For I am here with you
Though you're far away
I am here to stay

For you are not alone
For I am here with you
Though we're far apart
You're always in my heart

For you are not alone...

[ www.azlyrics.com ]

heal the world

There's a place in your heart
And I know that it is love
And this place could be much
Brighter than tomorrow.
And if you really try
You'll find there's no need to cry
In this place you'll feel
There's no hurt or sorrow.
There are ways to get there
If you care enough for the living
Make a little space, make a better place.

Chorus:
Heal the world
Make it a better place
For you and for me and the entire human race
There are people dying
If you care enough for the living
Make a better place for
You and for me.


If you want to know why
There's a love that cannot lie
Love is strong
It only cares for joyful giving.
If we try we shall see
In this bliss we cannot feel
Fear or dread
We stop existing and start living
Then it feels that always
Love's enough for us growing
Make a better world, make a better world.

Chorus:
Heal the world
Make it a better place
For you and for me and the entire human race.
There are people dying
If you care enough for the living
Make a better place for
You and for me.

Bridge:
And the dream we would conceived in
Will reveal a joyful face
And the world we once believed in
Will shine again in grace
Then why do we keep strangling life
Wound this earth, crucify it's soul
Though it's plain to see, this world is heavenly
Be God's glow.


We could fly so high
Let our spirits never die
In my heart I feel
You are all my brothers
Create a world with no fear
Together we'll cry happy tears
See the nations turn
Their swords into plowshares
We could really get there
If you cared enough for the living
Make a little space to make a better place.

Chorus:
Heal the world
Make it a better place
For you and for me and the entire human race
There are people dying
If you care enough for the living
Make a better place for
You and for me.

Refrain (2x)


There are people dying if you care enough for the living
Make a better place for you and for me.
There are people dying if you care enough for the living
Make a better place for you and for me.

alteration

akan ada beberapa atau bahkan banyak hal yang bakalan berubah di hidup gw saat nanti gw 'menanggalkan' si putih abu abu

contohnya aja
1. gw nggak bisa lagi naik bis sekolah kuning (yang gratis) itu . hha



2. nggak ada lagi tarif 1000 rupiah untuk anak sekolah ketika naik metro/kopaja
3. nggak harus bertarung dengan 06.30 pagi..!!!
4. nggak ada lagi 'masuk colongan' cm krn telat 10 menit
5. nggak akan ada lagi pelajaran EKSAK yang memuakkan..!!!



6. nggak ada lagi yang bawel
guru :'nak pake kerudungnya dong..'
gw : 'iya buu'
guru : 'nah gini kn cantik..'
(hhmmm please ya, psti dialami dgn hampir seluruh siswi di limau)
7. bakalan kangen sama es teh mbak'e yang hanya 1000 rupiah
8. bakalan kangen banget sama LIMAU 3 PLAY GROUP HIGH SCHOOL

my struggle

akhirnya setelah melewati masa masa sangat sulit berkutat dengan asas black, efek tyndal, integral, dimensi ruang, PH larutan, redoks, virus, protista, fungi, dan pelajaran yang memuakkan selama 6 bulan terakhir. gue berhasil LULUS dengan teman teman seperjuangan gue lainnya.
nggak terasa ternyata kegilaan kita karena UAN usai sudah sampai disini.
tapi gue bakalan kangen banget sama masa masa itu :)

my escape

thanks for all my best besties.

daichy, thank you sooo my closed friend you my first destination when i in disorder and so confused

eki, white ranger thanks for borrow your money . heheh. thanks for your anxiety and mindfully. i know you adores me. :)

ibu (eki's mommy), thank you so much for your advices and your solicitious about me you really like my ideal mother

prio, black ranger thanks for stood treat me heheh and invite me to your motorcycle club so gratify

wati, my old bestfriend thanks for shared altough my money is lost in there ;(

dyn, my madness pal thanks comforted me, and make me forget about my problem

tyara, my besties thanks for a profound interest my beloved pal who allowed me spend the night for 2 days. heheh. and dinda who loyal listener and accompany spend the night in tyara's home

gayah, thaks you soooo for shared about guy (aldyth) until 3am . hahahah

dinda, my last pleace for escape thanks for your understanding and split up my beloved friend

pinky, my foolish pal thanks for carry me to my final destination

and thaks for you who counseled me :

adhitya radu (ABANG i love you more!!)

dimas fay dunlea

achmad afdhal


especially thanks for GOD my heart abutment who guard against and provide shelter for me during i escape

go far away

akhirnya kemarin malem gw pergi juga dari rumah.
ini kabur perdana gw dari rumah.
furthermore they not keen on me! what for again?
maybe its not a big one dispute, but i think i must measures
im not really want do this! but its far too much.
and her expression visible serious.
what must i do, besides follow what her want.
you know what? its very very hurt.
im not really want to make them worry, but i dont know must to do.

single & happy!!

Oppie Andariesta - Single Happy

Mereka bilang aku pemilih dan kesepian
Terlalu keras menjalani hidup
Beribu nasehat dan petuah yang diberikan
Berharap hidupku bahagia

[*]

Aku baik-baik saja
Menikmati hidup yang aku punya
Hidupku sangat sempurna
I’m single and very happy

[**]

Mengejar mimpi-mimpi indah
Bebas lakukan yang aku suka
Berteman dengan siapa saja
I’m single and very happy

Mereka bilang sudah saatnya karena usia
Untuk mencari sang kekasih hati
Tapi ku yakin akan datang pasangan jiwaku
Pada waktu dan cara yang indah

Back to [*][**]

I’m single and very happy

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film gw diterima PROVOKE!

setelah mengirimkan 2 karya terbesar gw, BUSWAY dan MERVEILLEUX L'AMOUR alias ML pada bulan febuary lalu. akhirnya film gw pun diterima untuk mengikuti workshop bareng HANUNG BRAMANTYO besok (kamis, 21 mei 2009) bersama PROVOKE! magazine yang udah mengadakan acara ini. thanks PROVOKE! yang udah milih film gw menjadi 3 besar bersama 5 film prancis. thanks alot buat my best crew XII IPA 1 yang sudah dengan sangat baik memproduksi ML. oia nggak lupa patner gw juga di film BUSWAY aditya qkay makasih juga. tanpa kalian gw nggak akan bisa meniti karir di dunia sinema.

introduction my best pals

in this page i wanna introduction all my besties, all madness we did, all bad story about us, all our daffy, all wacky act, etc.

• my loony pal

this is my daffy pal, we did some stupid together and she tought silly metters.

• my dainty besties

they are my loveliest pal, maybe us different each other. but i really confortable among them. we share happiness, cry, and devide load each other.

acquainting my classmate

her name is siti rogayah, friend at sharing in the same struggle

her name is gerina liandari, she want to be a writter

her name is aulia agustiningrum, she like disapprove of other people

those are my best crew in merveillux l'amour

they accompany me 8 hours/day, we laughing and enjoy the day together
in

x-men : wolverine

akhirnya gw nonton wolverine juga (di tempat yang gw inginkan pula) hihhi

lumayan lah.. not bad!

Film ini mengisahkan tentang awal mula Wolverine sang manusia Srigala Dua puluh tahun sebelum bergabung dengan tim X-Men, James Howlett atau yang lebih dikenal sebagai Logan adalah seorang tentara yang diikutkan dalam proyek pembuatan tentara super. Dalam proses ini, tubuh Logan kemudian disatukan dengan kerangka logam yang disebut adamantium dan membuatnya memiliki kekuatan super.

Logam yang menyatu dalam tubuh Logan ini bukan hanya memberikan kekuatan super saja namun bisa muncul sebagai cakar panjang yang seolah tumbuh dari dalam kepalan tangan Logan. Selain itu Logan juga memiliki kemampuan menyembuhkan diri dengan cepat sehingga tak bisa dilukai dengan senjata apa pun. Proyek awal ini juga menyertakan beberapa tentara lain termasuk Victor Creed (Liev Schreiber) dan Kayla (Lynn Collins).
Bagian keempat yang sebenarnya adalah prequel dari trilogi X-MEN ini akan mengungkap misteri di balik potongan ingatan yang selalu menghantui Logan atau yang kemudian dikenal sebagai Wolverine saat ia bergabung dengan tim X-Men. Dalam film ini juga akan terungkap kisah di balik permusuhan antara Wolverine dan Sabretooth yang sebenarnya adalah Victor Creed sahabat baik Logan.

LIMAU 3 playgroup high school

Masa masa sma gw bentar lagi bakal berakhir, maka berakhir juga ke gilaan ke gilaan konyol yang banyak gw habis kan di limau (sekolah gw).
Oiya gw belom cerita gw bersekolah di salah satu yayasan muhammadiyah, yaitu SMA muhammadiyah 3 di bilangan jakarta selatan, tepat nya di jln limau I,II,III. Dan karna itu pula sekolah gw lebih tenar di sebut LIMAU 3 yang katanya ANTI GORASIX (lho?!)

Oke, disamping anti banget sama yang namanya GORASIX (gerombolan a***ng berisix) katanya juga. kegiatan belajar mengajar di Limau 3 ini persis banget kaya playgroup! Maka di sebutlah Limau 3 playgroup high school. Kenapa? Karena kegiatan belajar mengajar yang dilangsung kan selama 5 hari (senin-jumat) dari jam 06.30-14.30 ini kelewat santai. Gimana nggak santai, setiap guru nerangin pelajaran (apapun pelajarannya kec. Biologi gurunya killer) kita bisa tidur dengan nyenyak menggunakan bantal bila perlu, kita bisa maen PSP, bisa juga narsis foto foto dikelas, atau dengerin lagu dari hp i-pod atau mp3. Buat lo yang emg pengen menikmati masa SMA lo tanpa tugas dan peraturan sekolah yang ketat, disinilah tempatnya lo mengeksplor (kenakalan lo hihi).
Yaiyalah disini kita nggak perlu masukin baju (untuk cewek) tapi wajib memakai kerudung (yaiyalah namanya juga muhammadiyah) cowok juga paling seminggu sekali disuru masukin baju. Disina kita nggak perlu pake sepatu item atau putih bebas mamen. Kalo kita telat (dan apesnya nggak bisa masuk colongan) juga palingan Cuma suruh masuk jam pelajar ke 3. yang paling asik disini gurunya gahol semua

Liat aja kondisi kelas gw saat dihukum nggak ngerjain tugas bahasa indonesia

my freaky classmate

must procure it , came what may !!!

you / me / diferent

“ memutus kan memiliki anak tidak seperti kau memutuskan memebeli baju, yang jika kau membelinya kau akan mendapatkan yang kau mau”

ini gw kutip dari buku favorit gw ‘the baby and i’ gw tau dia mungkin nggak suka sama gw, karna ada banyak sekali perbedaan diantara kami tp apakah dia sama skali nggak bisa menerima perbedaan itu?

You know what? I always try to not lie to her. Tapi jujur malah tambah salah. I really dont have any choosen. Im so sorry, andai jujur itu benar benar lebih baik dari kebohongan gw bakalan selalu memilih untuk jujur. Tapi pada setiap kenyataan semuanya berbeda. Itu yang membuat gw merasa bahwa bohong itu lebih aman.

you know, i really love her more more and more everything in this world. Bahkan melebihi diri gw sendiri. Tapi dia selalu lain menilai gw seperti apa yang gw tulis diatas td (all negative of me).

di dalam kesesakan (anybody help me?)

the case such as this that make me feel the despair of living
each sniff oxygen feels very chest tighten.
whether the oxygen in the air mixed other substances which make a chest packed this night?
or my heart may have been mixed other substances that
I truly do not (well, the word is a word that often once I re-) what is wrong with myself.
I do not understand what should I do to survive in conditions like this
conditions where all is in itself is wrong.
even in the world may also be a mistake.
ago where the truth lie to me? no one?
there a space, or even a corner in the world
that can lean to draw breath or just relieved.
where I felt safe, at least in a few minutes

rara's suit

this life like rainbow which have many colours.
like tongue which can experience many taste.
thats why i choose this tittle is life's suit.

disini kita bakalan liat atau lebih tepatnya kita share ttg hidup. gw bakalan berbagi kisah kisah menarik yang gw sebut life's suit itu